As I get more comfortable with writing, I start to see my interests shift. I knew my blog would take a lot of my time; writing posts, taking photographs, and handling all of the maintenance that my website requires. When I say my interests have shift, I really mean my focus. Before I started my blog, I wanted to learn more about photography. Playing with the idea of starting my own photography business. I can’t remember how the idea of starting a blog came about. I was looking into creating a website specifically for photography, but somehow I created a blog instead. Needless to say, my photography business has taken a backseat because of my blog. The good thing about blogging is that photography is half of the recipe in my opinion. You can’t have a blog without photographs. You can, but I’m not sure how well it would do. I’m definitely a visual person. So when I come across a blog without photos, I skip most of it and get to the more important parts. I hate to say that but, realistically I only visit blogs through Pinterest. So photography plays a very important role when blogging.
This is a perfect way to practice. For me anyways. I have to say my photography game has improved significantly, especially on my instagram since starting my blog. I was always asking myself, “why doesn’t my instagram look like this person’s instagram?” “Why can’t I figure it out?” I had the equipment, but my images weren’t in sync on my profile. Meaning when you looked at my instagram, my images didn’t flow with one another, my editing was all over the place and I’d have random photos that didn’t fit into my theme.
Lately I’ve been putting more thought into how I pose. I pay attention to the detail in the background. I finally understand my rhythm, my style. That’s really what you see on people’s instagram. It’s their theme and a lot of the popular profiles have the over exposed photos, lots of white with pops of earthy tones. I’ve always wanted my profile to look like that. I finally realized that the clean, all white look wasn’t for me. The over exposed look isn’t very flattering for my skin. Also I’ve found that plain backgrounds don’t do it for me. I love how buildings and cars can add dimension to the photo, instead of it being flat. I feel as though I obsess over my flaws when I’m the main subject in the photo. When I’m not the only subject, but the main subject, I’m more myself and I can hide my awkwardness. The point I'm trying to make, is I like having other objects surrounding me so I don’t hone in on my flaws. Does that make sense?
I still have a lot of work to do. I’m still really awkward when my husband photographs me, but at the same time I’m becoming more familiar with my body, and also my camera. I have to direct my husband so learning how to communicate directions clearly is getting easier. Before I would yell at my him, “hold the camera higher, no lower, move over there, no over here.” You can imagine how annoyed he’d get. Plus he’s not comfortable with taking photos in public so that adds to his frustration. I needed to be quicker with adjusting the settings. It really is snap, snap ok that’s it. More often than not, they’re over exposed. And a few times after we were done and we’re leaving that’s when I realize the settings were off and none of the photos were useable. So messing with my settings at a quicker pace with less mistakes is becoming more natural. I can’t afford not to be fast with my settings. Especially with a shy husband and rambunctious toddler. I've been surprising myself. I never thought I’d understand ISO and aperture as much as I do now. So, I’d say that’s progress. Being vulnerable, putting myself out there has helped me explore my creativity. I can see my confidence is growing and hopefully soon I can get back to starting my own photography business. But until then, I’m going to keep practicing. It's true what they say "Practice makes perfect", well perfect by your standards. Trying to be like someone else can limit your creative abilities, don't put yourself in a creative box. Step out of your comfort zone, and you might be surprised with what you can do.